But do I really love L.T.? I am not sure either. She is a good choice but not great. but she is probably the best I can get currently.

I hate to be bothered by this problem again. I need sex and companion. That’s it.

Free counters

Now is the critical moment in your career and your life. If you are diligent and work hard, you will get both career and life. If you don’t, then neither will come. You are just as loser as anybody else here.

Again, you need to return to your clearly monitored routine life. That is the only way you can success. You know the extend and the limit of your raw talent, but also the importance of discipline and hard work.

OK. Now you treat it as seven days in hell. Nothing but MSD. No movie, no hangout. No nothing. You have one hour lunch time and one hour dinner time. That is all you got to relax and read something else. Don’t give yourself any excuse of not accomplishing what you set out to do. Given the time constraint, the only way to achieve this is to work day and night till the last day before your trip.

August 25, whether you like it or not, you must email N.Y. the draft. Are you with me? You must email her the draft. You cannot be lax like this. It has been almost a month since you submit the two revisions.

Enough has been said. Now work!

Action. As far as I can see, if I act, then things will change. Just as did in 2009. The main reason that was the happiest year in my life is because I keep on improving myself, regardless of how tired I am. Perhaps I do need somebody to carry on my burden. I simply cannot. I don’t know.

Currently I have three choices. The immediate choice does not work for the long run. The second choice, I don’t know. She is not the type that can excite me, but if we two are together, I will live a relative peaceful life: I can fully trust her loyalty. However, is that all I want? I want more from my life; I need some one who can challenge me from time to time; I need an equal, not a subservient. The third choice, well, it seems all other factors about her are near perfect. But what about the height of my children? That is so damn serious concern I can hardly neglect.

It then leaves me little choice but to wait. The chances of finding another better choice, as many said to me again and again, are not that high. But what else can I do? I am already in this trap.

It then leave me the only option of happy life: work. Work hard. That is the only way that you can be happy. I hope you enjoy your work. Your teaching, and your research alike. In particular, your mind should not be bothered by these kind of daily stuff. Just take care of them with due diligence.

It is not because I refuse to choose; rather, even if I have it, I would still not be happy. Then why bother to pursue it?

Work, reading, and exercise are the only things left that I enjoy doing. If so, do them well. Let your mind not bothered by this kind of stuff.

For the current situation, you need to device an exiting strategy, and execute it appropriately. You know none of them will eventually satisfy you, then you need to get out of it and yet retain a good relationship if not intimate one.

So that is about it? I don’t know. But then how can you keep your spirit high? I mean, when living in a separate state, how can you keep yourself awake all the time? Shouldn’t you create an environment that you can have opportunities to communicate with others? Well, online communication or blogging is one way to keep yourself awake, but I am less sure that would be sufficient. You do need to interact with people from time to time; without that, you can hardly feel you are alive. More importantly, you can hardly concentrate on the work. Therefore, maintaining a healthy social network goes beyond the friendship itself. You need to go deeper for the consolation.

I don’t know what to do with the current situation. I simply cannot find what I want. Am I lost? Only one aspect. But I still need to keep on going for other part of my life. That is, your work. You should appreciate the beauty of work, which enables you to keep your life go on.

Volodymyr Babich

Called Cindy. haven’t talk to her since summer. She may move to DC. Good luck

This my second rejection in the half year. But, hell! This is not going to discourage me. I am going to fight as hard as I can. Just hang on there. And I will be just find.

Yes. That’s right. Get things done!

1) Syllabus. 2) MSD: comparison of policies.

However, I should have the courage to fight. I have done the surgery. Things can only get better. Also, the projects are well under way. I simply need to push it harder. The relationship currently is on a rather comfortable footing, neither over-heated, nor cold, just cozy enough for a enjoyable living.

I need to push my MSD project further down the road. Also, VCE should has a draft before Jan. 20th. In addition, INT revision should be on the radar.

You know that your primary issue now is to get MSD done before Jan. 14. After that, you can do whatever you want. However, if you procrastinate, no one will push you on this project. Without a doubt, it is going to be dead again. You have already spent so much time and energy on it. Now it is the time to get it done!!!

http://static.nobelprize.org/nobel_prizes/economics/laureates/2010/ecoadv10.pdf

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Journal of economic theory [0022-0531]  Chade  (2006)  volume: 129  issue: 1  page: 81

This is a very insightful paper. Need to read more carefully.

To read:

[2] S. Athey, Single crossing properties and the existence of pure strategy equilibria in games of incomplete
information, Econometrica 69 (2001) 861–889.

[6] K. Burdett, M. Coles, Marriage and class, Quart. J. Econ. 112 (1997) 141–168.

[21] L. Smith, The marriage model with search frictions, Mimeo, MIT, 1997.

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Politicians make promises and brag about the results of their work of seen benefits, but they ignore the unintended consequences and unseen harm of their laws. Politicians promised that:

10. “Cash for clunkers” would save the auto industry. Instead, it increased the costs of used cars (the ones that poor people buy), decreased charitable donations and just moved auto sales from other months into July and August

9. Increasing the minimum wage would guarantee everyone better pay, but it ended up killing jobs

8. Title IX would end discrimination against women in sports, but instead it has taken sports away from both men and women

7. Big projects like stadiums, arenas and conference centers will create jobs. Instead, they steal money from the local grocery store

6. Politicians manipulate the tax code to “save small farmers” and “save the environment” but instead create an explosion of alpacas and give rich people like Stossel free golf carts

5. Credit card reform would save us from horrible bank fees, but “reform” led to higher credit card interest rates and less credit for the poor, which drove them to worse forms of credit

4. The health care bill would give us cheaper more comprehensive health care, but instead it’s causing insurance companies to stop offering health insurance altogether

3. Ethanol would relieve our dependence on foreign oil and save the environment, but instead it’s increased the cost of food, done more damage to the environment and to taxpayers.

2. Politicians said more home ownership was good for America, but their subsidies created a bubble that made life worse

And the #1 promise politicians made that went awry?

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You must remind yourself everyday that this is your work. If you are not passionate about it, then no one will. Currently the project seems running out of steam; you got to commit yourself to the final push of this project.

As a man, you have to be good at something that you love and excel. I find I have the problem of working multiple tasks. The main reason is that the switching cost/period is very long for me. I can not swiftly get out of the last project and engage in the new one. Again, the main reason is the lack of urgency. If they are sufficiently urgent, I should have no problem to work on both. The second point in mind is the habit. Perhaps because I have yet developed that way of working. For whatever reason, I must force my way through.

Do not visit any social network site until you get the paper done!

It is a habit. Once you are used to it, you won’t feel the constraint any more.

Get to work!

Now I am in good health, both mentally and physically. Therefore, it is the time to gear up again and carry out your plan, pushing for the grand scheme.

Focus, focus, and focus!

My sister emailed me some slides on how to deal with pressure and health. There are four aspects that you can do to keep yourself healthy psychologically. The first is your mind. You got to have proper self-esteem and confidence. Writing, on the other hand, can help you spell out what bother you and consequently have therapeutically effect on you. The second aspect is social life. Your family, friends, and other social life keep you in a network that you can fulfill your value, appreciate your efforts and obtain/provide supports. The third one, quite effective in my view, is exercise. I find that when you feel low, exercise is a very effective way (sometimes the only way) to keep your life running. The last one is your hobbies. When you cannot do anything else, at least you should have something that you enjoy doing and entertains yourself when you are alone.

Man, you got to live up to your potential. No one will like you if you do not love yourself. Therefore, it is vitally important that you first need to be the one loved by yourself.

A key to it is the hard-cultivated habits. You got to keep doing it, no matter how unwillingly or hard it may appears, until you do not feel it.

Another good way to keep your spirit high is to start a day with 1 hour reading and 1 hour exercise. Before any work, write to yourself something positive. You need to encourage yourself every day. You believe if you work hard, you will get there, no matter how hard it. It is just a matter of time. Patience does not mean inaction; rather, it is perseverance that you keep on working hard for remote reward.

Be courageous. By now you have known so well not every efforts pay off; many attempts end in vain or even in pain. But that should not be the excuse for your laziness, for your piggy and cynical attitude towards the world.

For too long, you have been a pessimistic person, which has cost your great fortune for your past 10 years. You have another 10 years to make a real difference.

I have seen life and death, happiness, sorrow, and what do I really care about? There are so many good things to be experienced in your life.

If that is all it takes, let it go, and resume your normal life.

You have experienced how bad things can go, as your laziness and the desire for ease led to. There is no way that you can be happy, and there is no way that everything happens without efforts. Everything takes efforts. Whatever you want, you need to take time and make efforts to achieve it, let it be research or life.

Start taking charge of your life!

So what is the deal? There are two revisions must be done. Here is the solution: YOU PROMISE TO EMAIL THEM TO YOUR COAUTHORS REGARDLESS OF THE SITUATION!

Let’s get to work now.

2. The issue is itching: on one hand, I really enjoy work with them and I don’t want to sour their passions; on the other hand, I have only limited time and I cannot do too much about it. I guess a better compromise is to lead a reading group so that both sides of the story are taken into account.

3. Push the application issue until it is done.

2. The book by Paul Malgrim is a worthy and lengthy 600 pages reading. I plan to finish read it in two month. I will devote every evening 1 hour before sleep to this task.

3. Writing makes an exact man. So write every day, if you want to be exact.

4. What I wrote a year ago has largely been fulfilled. It is so pleasant to revisit this place after a while. I will probably keep blogging on this place and record what is true of the life.

5. I find that openness brings more positive change than negative ones. By so doing you have keep yourself constantly check, and it gives strong incentive to keep on good working. It is an uplifting process.

I am now in a very good position to achieve what I want. Be aware that schedules or plans alone, without due motivation and passion, cannot get you very far. In order to play to your full potential, you need to pursue them passionately.

You have seen all good and bad in this institution. And you know that much of it is irrelevant to your life. Then just have fun with what you are working on.

That should not distract me from my true goal. In the end, you should do you research, improve yourself continuously. Your personal life should serve as a stimuli, not distraction to your research. Therefore, you have to be focused and have a clear agenda for each day.

There are two problems with me. 1. I don’t write as often as before. This is very dangerous, for without dialog with myself I can hardly keep myself on the track all the time. Therefore, I should pick up my writing habit. 2. Too much internet surfing. Acknowledging it is a fun, I should not over indulge in it. After all, I have only limited time and I have to allocate it appropriately. In particular, I should have more reading before sleep. Probably I should put 10-11pm as my reading time.

Again, you are well on the track. Just need to develop better habits and keep on working.

Note that there are still many pending business to take care of. Research, conferences, vehicle registration, green card, etc.

By the way, his weight is down to 185 pounds.

There are things that you can never be good at. However, procrastination never help. The best way is just face it, no matter how hard, ugly it is. You will have to go through it any more. 

If you have decided and made up your decision, then stick to it and take the consequence, no matter it is good or bad. That’s simply the way it is.

You know what you want, you just lack the courage to pursue it. Then nothing is meaningful. The spirit, the most important thing. Keep your morale high. No matter what. That’s the secrete of success. That’s you know so well from your experience.

You know maybe this is the way that you have to endue, the test you have to pass in order to move up, to be free.

Besides research, I should develop other interests, the real interests that I can enjoy besides research. It is still not too late to do so. And in particular, I should beef up my economics knowledge. It is fun and interesting, as well as helpful to my research.

You know you are not young any more. You got to be good at something. And you know how to achieve it. It is just a matter of your will.

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Keep working on what you believe. If you build it, they will come.

I should not disturbed by these kid of itchy issues. In fact, that happened to me before. Why should you be distracted or angry? I am not going to waste my time on this kind of things. I have better things to do. After all, it has little to do with my real life. I can learn from it. In any case, speak in the right language and be ware of the context, but conservation is not a bad idea. That is, you may need to be humble sometimes, even when it is online. You don’t want to offend others unnecessarily. It will not bring you any benefits except more troubles. Therefore, keep your tone low.

Now focus on what are you doing! Forget about all these garbages!

Time is flying. You cannot be stuck like this all the time. From today, I am not going to use bbs any more. I just wasted too much time on it without much improvement.

I am afraid of aging without getting better. I especially hate that I am still so clumsy in so many things. Maybe I am just not that type of people and I guess I have to accept that.

I cannot let time go like this. If you are not happy with your current life, why don’t you do your best to change it? You have what you believe in, you have your dream, and you should know what works. In any case, it is your passion, your enthusiasm, your motivation count. Without them, you are nothing and nobody.

Don’t let yourself down. You have overcome so many obstacles to come to this position. Make the best use of your life. Within several years, if you have had enough work, you may not need to worry about your life any more. In addition, you should have learned all you need before that. I don’t think after several years, you still have the ambition and energy such doing so. In particular, you won’t have the time for that.

Well educated people have the tendency to be more conservative and less risk take. Therefore, they can hardly be successful in business. But in fact academia is a boring environment to some extent. If you don’t reach out to other people, your world would be really small. More depressing is that the life would be the same, no matter 1 year or 10 years later.

Is that what you really want? Do you have the courage to try something different? Why do I have to have some prespecified image for myself? Isn’t that too restrictive? Why cannot you be more brave?

On big problem of my current life is that I am over focused on career. In fact, I tried to put everything aside but research. This over done may not be the most efficient way to achieve my goal. I was easily bored and depressed had things gone wrong. Therefore, it is very important that I should have a balanced life. Everything is necessary, as long as it is part of your life. You should pay them due respect.

One effective way to develop a balance life is to stick to your plan and try your best to fulfill it. By doing so, good habits can be cultivated naturally. Meanwhile, things just play out as they should be.

Currently, I am getting better, especially physically, after two month exercise and good diet. Again, it is very important to keep a regular life style. After years, at least I can tell myself: you did not waste your life when you were young.

Man, you got to live everyday fully, for that is the only way to have a meaningful life.

Forget about your jealousy. Everyone has his/her own destiny. If you cannot do what others do, then don’t mind. Just be yourself. Forget about all these comparison. It is your heart, your own satisfaction, your own peaceful mind matters. Leave others outside your mind if they are not your world.

Be yourself. Do what you value and be happy with what you are.

I have come a long way to today’s position. I have wonderful environment to prove myself. The only thing I need is to do it.

Come on. You have everything you need to achieve what you want. Why do you have to be jealous? Leave that out. It has nothing to do with me.

Just leave it out your life. It’s your choice. You want a new life. You want to have something different. It does not matter what others do, as long as you are satisfied.

Everything is a habit, just start work on it.

There are at least two reasons that you should keep a balanced life. First, by diversifying your life, you have lower risk of depression and failure. Imagine if you put all your time and energy on one thing and for some reason, it does not play out as you wish , given that many environmental factors may take control of the process. Then what are you going to do? At that time, you may simply wish that you had invested on other stocks. Second, balance can also increases your efficiency. We are easily bored with continuously working on a single thing, especially when it drags too long. Keep a small set of interests are much more productive than focusing on a singleton set.

The following things also help in curing depression. (1) maintain a regular life style; (2) jog and learning; (3) music; (4) set one day a week for yourself.

Have you forgotten your dream? Have you been satisfied with yourself? If not, saving these sentiments and go back to work!!!

For this week, I am going to add exercise push up for the day time and try to get rid of the p.

It may be the best for us just not to contract each other. If there is no result, just leave it as it was, and move on. I know deep in my heart, there is always a soft spot for her, no matter what.

Maybe one day, when both of us get married, we can talk to each other again? How sad it is. But that is the life, the flower bloomed in the wrong season.

Down in the SC it is always sunny. But do you really feel happy? I don’t know. I just don’t want to think about it. Let life lead me to wherever it is. I just don’t care any more. If there is anything that can make me happy. It is the work. It is the achievement. The flower had its time.

It appears to me that I can never be happy if I cannot achieve what I set up to. Even when I am with friends, I still can not let go the work. Therefore, if all my mind is in research and knowledge, why bother to be social? I will be just fine with whatever come naturally, since I do not have a high expectation from it. Another factor that contributes to my depression is the unease feeling or jealousy of others. It is clear to me that I can never be satisfied unless I am in the top percentile.

IF that is what you want, and you don’t care much about other things. Then why just focus and use all your mind and energy to get what you want? I practically give up pursuing family life. What I want is to have a peaceful mind, to understand what’s going on, and a couple of coffee with a book, a pencil and a piece of paper, with which I can think and enjoy.

I enjoy learning and working. I especially love to know new stuff and see how they work. However, I have been distracted from my goal for too long. More than ten years are wasted in getting nowhere. The fundamental problem is that I do not have the guts to get rid of my bad habits, with which I have battled for years.

But do you have the WILL to be what you want to be? If your desire is strong enough, if you mind is strong enough, you should have been there already. You have all the raw talents that are needed for such destiny. You are better prepared than most of people. If you still cannot achieve it, then it is you, not anything else to blame. Looking back, you see again and again that how your laziness leads to one failure after another. You are lucky to be in today’s position, for which there are more deserving people out there.

In terms of research, as well as life, do whatever it takes. You must be intentionally subdue the desire of ease and lust. They lead you to nowhere but failure and depression.

Sometimes you get need to hang around longer enough and you will get used to it. That’s called habits, which can lead to to success. But before you have them, you got to pay particular efforts to develop or culture them. As soon as you are on the right track, you are right to the goal.

As Mr. Lin said, research is just a habit, just a matter of whether you have it or not.

It is apparent that I just think too much but do too little. This got to be changed.

You should always remind yourself what you want. That’s keep you focused and happy. I find that the sense of achievement is a real source for happiness. Otherwise, I got easily lost and just go down without stop.

If you feel bored, then there is a good chance that you are not productive and not doing good work. Work alone should give you tremendous pleasure. Otherwise, there is no meaning of being here alone.

I must establish a rigorous yet heathy life style. That is the key to the success. In particular, I have to jog and study everyday, I mean everyday! I should devote my evening time study, put everything aside. Only study and thinking. This time should not be compromised. Otherwise, you cannot grow wise and strong as you grow old.

Had lunch with the dean and other juniors. Not much to say since I am new here. But they are friendly.

Keep on doing what you are doing

You need to balance your life, focused but not ignore other part of the life. Enjoy the true life, not just the highlight. Life is the history of every bits. In retrospect, you may only remember the big moments. But what makes you happy is every moment, not just those highlights.

词：杨洁 曲：许镜清 唱：吴静

鸳鸯双栖蝶双飞，
满园春色惹人醉。
悄悄问圣僧，
女儿美不美，
女儿美不美。
说什么王权富贵，
怕什么戒律清规。
只愿天长地久，
与我意中人儿紧相随。
爱恋伊，爱恋伊，愿今生常相随。
说什么王权富贵，
怕什么戒律清规。
只愿天长地久，
与我意中人儿紧相随。
爱恋伊，爱恋伊，愿今生常相随。

http://www.tfcollector.com/sevenshot/mp3/xyj/neq.mp3

《相见难别亦难》
相见难、别亦难
怎诉这胸中语万千
我柔情万种
他去志更坚
只怨今生无缘
道不尽声声珍重
默默地祝福平安
人间事常难遂人愿
且看明月又有几回圆
远去已，远去已，
从今后梦莹魂牵……

Enjoy it, man! A tough and solitude road to the awesome.

Although I may not be satisfied with why I am, there is one thing that I am really proud of myself: I have never lost the courage to fight. Given what I am having now, it is again a good opportunity to launch another campaign for better life. It is of critical importance that you are used to excellence as a habit. After all, we are what we repeatedly do. It is not an one shot or event, or day, that defines you, but rather how you live your life that defines who you are. You can talk about issues for years, but without action, nothing really changes. I think the real challenge is that, when you are tired, when you are bored, when you are tempted, are you strong enough to stick to your ideals? Are you going to endure the pains, or even the tortures in order to pursue the greatness? I have failed myself for many years. But if there is a destination, there is a fate, and there is a belief, you are never to later to live the tough but rewarding life again.

The key is to overcome your laziness and lustful desires. At every testing moment, there is a voice, a voice calling for great potential in yourself, that warns you of the dismal pitfall that you are going to fall if you do not hold on your belief.

Honestly, I am more blessed than most of others. If I cannot achieve more than others. I am not only fail myself, but also let down many others who are looking upon me. The value of your life is not only yourself, but also the people who care about you. Although they do not see how you live your life everyday, they will know the end.

Then what to fear? The biggest problem with me is the inertial to change. Or rather under the disguise of shy, I just don’t do my due diligence for what I want. Here is something for you, if you like it, go for it!!! If you want to a girl, get her! If you want to be famous, work your ass out to be the few. If you feel your life sucks without much fun, than find people and reach out with extra efforts. Don’t be afraid of embarrassment. You will be embarrassed from time to time. But it is way wiser to experience the due embarrassments earlier than later. The older, the less likely you would like to try anything new for the very reason of fearing embarrassment. But hi, dude, if the embarrassment is the price you need to pay for a better life, why not? If temporarily dismiss your pride is what takes to learn, to know, then hold your pride and learn what you don’t in the manner it takes.
We are what we repeatedly do.

Hello girl it’s been awhile
Guess you’ll be glad to know
That I’ve learned how to laugh and smile

Getting over you was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I’d really see you,
I’d really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes I still go crazy
No my heart just can’t hide that old feelin’ inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby, you know when I look in your eyes I go crazy

You say he satifies your mind
Tells you all of his dreams
I know how much that means to you

I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain’t true
No it just ain’t true

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive, it starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby, you know when I look in your eyes I go crazy

(SOLO)

Oooh, Oh Oooh, Oh

I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes I go crazy
No my heart just can’t hide that old feelin’ inside
Way deep down inside
I go crazy

by Michael Bolton

When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
The only moment in a life
That happens the same time
Is when a woman loves a man

She’ll be a mother and a child
Sacrifice her days and nights
And no other will exsist
She’ll put her life in every kiss
When a woman loves a man

And you’ll be amazed at when you’re stumbling
She’ll fight for you
And won’t let you give in
She’ll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man

A soothing breeze always blows
Somebody understands another soul
It’s like the planets have aligned
Every sentence has a rhyme
When a woman loves a man
Oh, you’ll be amazed how when
You’re needing it
She’ll fight for you
From the begining to the end
And she’ll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man

It`s the greatest gift of all
Knowing that unconditionally
She’ll catch you when you fall
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooohh, yeah
When a woman loves a man

When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
She’ll be a mother and a child
But all at the same time
When a woman loves a man

She’ll be your air,
She’ll bring you life
She’ll make me sacrifice
When a woman loves a man

Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Bernie Taupin
Available on the album Elton John

It’s a little bit funny this feeling inside
I’m not one of those who can easily hide
I don’t have much money but boy if I did
I’d buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it’s not much but it’s the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one’s for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you’re in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they’ve got me quite cross
But the sun’s been quite kind while I wrote this song
It’s for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I’ve forgotten if they’re green or they’re blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you’re in the world
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you’re in the world

Don’t quite remember when was the last time I looked at my life, but definitely longer than I should. What have changed since then? Not much. As long as you are not satisfied with yourself, yet lack of the will and courage to overcome that, then you are pretty much doomed. Unless you take tremendous efforts to build it, nothing will change

You got to understand that the career is only part of your life. Beside it, you have so many other issues that you need to take care of. It is often an excuse for not taking the responsibility of other things.

I have always remind myself that I should not be boiled slowly like a frog. Now at last I have the peace of my mind. But how can I lose my will forward? How can laziness and lusts occupy my life? The love of ease and lust is the the pitfall for anyone’s life. I am no different. I have already chanced my environment. It is clear now that it is not only environment matters, but what is more important is your will, your ambition, and your courage for better life. If that’s your future, if you want your life to be different. Then work your best, especially try hard to get rid your inherent evils.

Before others like you, you have to like yourself first. It is not just saying, but rather a deep pride from the fact that you live different and you can do what others fail to do, not only physically but also mentally.

Porn has sucked too much of my time, energy, my belief in myself, to name just a few…

HOW MISERABLE DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE?

It Never Rains In Southern California
Albert Hammond

Got on board a westbound seven-forty-seven
Didn’t think before deciding what to do
All that talk of opportunities
TV breaks and movies
Rang true, sure rang true

Seems it never rains in Southern California
Seems I’ve often heard that kind of talk before
It never rains in California
But, girl, don’t they warn ya
It pours, man, it pours

Out of work, I’m out of my head
Out of self-respect, I’m out of bread
I’m underloved, I’m underfed
I wanna go home

It never rains in California
But, girl, don’t they warn ya
It pours, man, it pours

Will you tell the folks back home I nearly made it
Had offers but don’t know which one to take
Please, don’t tell them how you found me
Don’t tell them how you found me
Gimme a break, gimme a break

Seems it never rains in Southern California
Seems I’ve often heard that kind of talk before
It never rains in California
But, girl, don’t they warn ya
It pours, man, it pours

Go!